You may remember that late last summer, just before school started back, I had really happy days and then really sad days. I thought going back to work this fall would be easier. And it has been in many ways. But, I still have my sad days. Today was one of those sad days. It's funny because it didn't start out to be one of those days. Morgan Kate and I started the day with a follow-up ENT appointment that went very well. Then a delicious lunch with Melissa and Caroline. It was shaping up to be a terrific day. And then it hit me. All of a sudden. Like a ton of bricks. At 2:00 this afternoon it occurred to me that I only had about a day and a half left of my summer. That's when I began to mope. And sulk. And when Travis came home I cried on his shoulder like a baby.
I know I sound ridiculous. I'll be the first to admit it. And it really doesn't make sense. I told Travis that I hate feeling like this. It makes me feel like a weirdo. I enjoy teaching. I really do. I love my school and I especially love my fifth grade team. I just hate endings. I hate saying goodbye to summer. I hate seeing my days of nothing but Morgan Kate end. August is overwhelming enough for me and then throw in my birthday, MK's birthday and the start of school and I tend to get a little emotional. I also get really overwhelmed thinking about balancing work, home, being a mommy, being a wife, being a good daughter, a good sister and a good friend. The list goes on and on. So, I cry, just like I did this afternoon. That and a little retail therapy usually make me feel like a brand new woman. Although my retail therapy this afternoon wasn't very therapeutic. Another thing that makes me smile and forget about all my worries? Watching these two...
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