Friday, May 29, 2009

Two posts in one day. Watch out!

This week we have had PT, OT, and EI. Whewh! We have been busy. I am worn out and all I did was watch. I can only imagine how my poor baby girl must be feeling. It has been a busy week, but so productive. As of today Morgan Kate is rolling both ways and reaching up for things while lying on her back. She is such a hard worker and I am so very proud of her!

Travis and I have been talking a lot lately about how we want to celebrate Morgan Kate's 1st birthday. What do we want to do? Where do we want to have it? Who will we include? And so forth. All of the talk about her birthday has me thinking a lot about her birth. I guess it's nothing really new though. I think about her birth quite often, daily as a matter of fact. 

It's funny. I realize that Monday will be June 1st of 2009, but sometimes I feel like I am still living in August of 2008. For the longest time I wrote August on all of my checks even though it was November or December. I know - it's hard to explain or even understand. And when I think about Morgan Kate being nine months old it seems ridiculous. It seems ridiculous to think that Morgan Kate is even 6 months old for that matter. August through December was such a blur. Really a blur. And even once we got home things were still so different. In my mind it's almost as if time has stood still - even though I know it really hasn't. 

It's sad to say, so very sad, but I am still writing thank you notes for baby showers that took place in November. I know, pathetic right? Now in real time that was over six months ago, but in my time it seems like it was just a few weeks ago. Another example, today I had to stop by the parking lot of my school to grab something. As I was pulling in it felt very familiar and not strange at all. It felt like something I had been doing for months. The sad part is - I haven't pulled into that parking lot since the day I was put on bedrest and that was on August 14th. Again, over nine months ago, but to me it feels like only weeks. There are phone calls that have gone unreturned and events/dates that have been forgotten. And not because I am a mean person or because I don't have time for people, but because in my mind time is just not the same as it was nine months ago. 

I know this post has probably been way too confusing. I probably have made no sense at all to all of you, even though it all makes sense to me. I guess I am just trying to say that I am working on realizing that it's almost June of 2009 and that nine months really have passed. 


Jason and Talyse Burkett said...

Wow! I could have written that post. I know exactly what you mean. In my mind it is still November when I went on bed rest. I went to Walmart the other day for the first time in over 6 months, but it felt like I had just been there the day before. It's so nice to know that I'm not the only one!

I'm also so glad that Morgan Kate is doing so well! What a beautiful baby girl you have!

Anonymous said...

Time goes by faster and faster and yet it seems to stand still in so many ways. I can't believe it has been a year today that I buried my Mom.. Yet here we are a year later and celebrating with Lynn and Amy tonight. Hope to see you all soon.
Mk's picture in the crib is precious.
Love, Aunt Rhonda

Jenny Garris said...

I wonder if this is a common phenomenon when you have a baby? I have felt that way many times---especially when I go to the school! Weird, huh? So feel better that it's not just you!!! :) It is hard to believe that MK is closing in on a year---just like it "snuck up" on me when Joel turned 1!! ha ha

Brooke Bridges said...

You are too sweet! We would LOVE it! That Nutramigen is killing my bank account! I can't believe how big Morgan Kate has gotten! Hopefully next time I run into you she will be with you!

Megan Thiel said...

I know exactly what you mean! A year ago right now I was on bedrest in the hospital. I can remember it so clearly that it seems like it was just a few weeks ago. I have spent all weekend thinking about it. I can't believe Kayley is going to be 1 soon. It just doesn't seem possible.