Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Prematurity Awareness Month Fact #25:
I have covered many facts about premature babies. I thought that for the next few days I would cover some facts about preventing or trying to prevent preterm birth.

Three groups of women are at greater risk of preterm labor or birth:
-Women who have had a previous preterm birth
-Women who are pregnant with twins, triplets or more
-Women with certain uterine or cervical abnormalities

Prior to having Morgan Kate I didn't fall into any of these categories.

Next time I will.

And that is something that I have already discussed with my OB.

I remember the first few days after having Morgan Kate. I was terrified, I was scared, I was angry, I was sad, I was hurting and I swore that I was finished having children. This time had been too much. This time had taken too much out of me. This time had shaken me to my core. I couldn't do this to myself again. I didn't want this happening to another child of mine. I was very adamant about it and I felt this way for a very long time. When people would ask about another child or mention Baby #2 I would cringe. I would tell them "absolutely not" or that I wasn't "brave enough to do that again". It wasn't that I didn't love Morgan Kate or love being a mom or even long for more children. I did. I had always dreamed of more than one child. But it was fear. The fear of not knowing what would happen the next time around.

Over time my feelings have changed. Some. Of course I am still terrified and very scared. But I do want to have another child. I don't know when. I just know I do. And I like to have "my ducks in a row", so this is something I have shared and discussed with my OB. And we have a plan for when or if that time arrives.

1 comment:

Heather said...

My oldest was born at 36 weeks and she was 4 lbs 15 oz. I know not nearly as small as MK but she was still little for her gestational age. I too did not have any of your typical things that would have made my high risk. My second pregnancy was considered high risk though. That meant 5 ultrasounds which produced a very healthy little baby girl. I had the same thoughts as you did about not wanting another just because I was scared. Keep your head up, you can do it! Look at all you have been through.