Thursday, August 12, 2010

I survived! I officially made it through my very first day back at work. It didn't start off easy, but as the day got progressed it got better and better. And I think (think being the keyword) that I might can do it again tomorrow. Maybe.

Morgan Kate and I are not morning people. Seriously. We typically wake up around 9ish...some days later. So in the grand scheme of things 5:15 am is really my "middle of the night". Today it was a completely different story. My typical middle of the night is now my new wake up time. Ugh! And it hurt even worse because at one this morning I was still wide awake. Yikes! I did fine waking up and getting ready. Travis even commented on how well I was doing. I was actually feeling very proud of myself until I walked into Morgan Kate's room and found this.

Oh my goodness! Total sweetness. She was sleeping so hard and I did not want to wake her. This is when the tears started. This is when I just wanted to call in sick and crawl back in bed. Maybe even call the district office and resign. (Just kidding.) However, I knew that was not even a option so I decided to slowly wake her up. (She was a little luckier and got to sleep until 6:30.) Needless to say, she was a little grumpy, but did well for the most part. Before leaving our house at 6:50 (these times are going to kill me) we snapped a few "First Day" photos.

Not quite ready for the flash!

My sweet baby girl!

I cried on the entire ride over to drop her off. I tried my hardest to talk to her, but I just couldn't get any words out. The big tears came when I had to say good-bye. It was hard. A little harder than I expected. I wanted to hold onto her and love on her and just take her back home with me. Again, not an option. So I tried my best to quickly say good-bye. She only cried for a second and then was completely fine. Her smile and comfort level definitely helped me. As soon as I left I called Travis. He wanted to ask about how things went and all I could say was, "Talk about something. But not MK. Just talk until I can get it together". By the time I made it to school I had pulled myself together and I am proud to say there were no more tears. Only smiles, and the absolute biggest smile came when I got to pick my baby girl up nine hours later. The longest nine hours of my life. It was like music to my ears when I saw her smile and heard her say, "Bah-beeeee!" My heart just melted.

So, maybe I can do this. I know there are going to hard days and good days, but maybe, just maybe, I can do this.

***A BIG thanks to all of those who called, left messages, texts, cards, emails, etc. It truly made me smile and helped me get through the day! I love you all dearly!


Justin and Jessica Jones said...

Glad to hear you made it through. I never doubted you would. :)

Newman Family said...

I am glad your first day back went okay. Trust will get a lot easier. That being said I know I am going to have a hard time when I go back to work again on September 1st after being home with Brandon all summer. But I know how much he loved the babysitter last year and how good the interaction with other children is for him.

MJP said...

Glad you had a great first day back!

Jason and Talyse said...

Ok, I'm a sobbing mess now, so I can't imagine how this has been for you. I'm so glad that you made it through and that MK did so well too! I sure wish Kyran and Karyssa could have you as a teacher one day!

Megan Thiel said...

I thought about you this morning on my drive to work after dropping my kids off! I'm glad you made it through the first day!

Kathy Hardison said...

You both looked so nice for your first day! Love you both to the moon and back. Can't wait to see you this weekend.

CAW said...

wonderful!!! I knew you could do it and both looking beautiful as ever- Carley was 9 weeks when she started day care and I always left a t shirt of mine with her so that she could smell my scent- weird?!? I dont know but it comforted me to know she had a piece of me with her throughout the day ..... and of course my heart beat for Carley as I counted the clock-
I wish you would move home and TEACH here :)
love you bunches!!!

Heather said...

Thanks Heather for making me a blubbering mess this morning reading this.

Yes, it is so hard leaving them for the first time. I don't think it matters if they are 2 months old or 2 years old, it is hard. But it does get better. You gets used to being away from her and enjoy adult interaction and she will be so excited to see you when you pick her up. That happens to be the highlight of my day!

Lexie Loo & Dylan Too said...

I'm glad that you made it through. I'm sure that each day will get easier. Your last few posts have made me cry, though!