Today is the day of the Orangeburg March for Babies. Last year was our first walk, but you were just a tiny thing and mostly stayed in your stroller. Today will be so different. Today YOU will walk! (For at least some of it anyway.)
You're nineteen months old now and I keep waiting for my emotions to settle. For me not to be so teary eyed by every little thing you do and that you are a part of. But it just hasn't happened. And I don't know that it ever will. And I am perfectly okay with that. I want to be strong today. I have been asked to say a few words before the walk and I want to do a good job. I don't want to be a blubbering mess. I want to make you proud. But I know that the tears will flow. They will flow because of you. You and your daddy are my heart and my life, my everything. They will flow because for quite some time, early on, I wasn't sure if I would ever see this day. I still have images of your tiny, frail, little body lying in the isolette with all of those wires and cords and tubes and not being able to hold you or comfort you. They will flow because of all the love your daddy and I have for you and for your precious, precious life. And they will flow because of all of our family and friends and supporters and all the love they show.
This year we have served as the Ambassador Family. It has been quite the honor and privilege. You are the Ambassador Baby. I'm slightly biased because I am your mommy, but I think they chose the perfect baby. One of the definitions for ambassador is an authorized messenger or representative. And you are just that. You are such a representative for the March of Dimes and premature babies and for all babies, everywhere. And you are definitely a messenger. Your story is inspiring and miraculous and I pray that to someone, somewhere, it gives them hope. And I hope that when you are old enough to talk, you will share you story with all who will listen. Because little girl, you have quite a story.
You are an amazing little girl, full of life and love and energy. Your smile melts my heart each and every day. Even at nineteen months you are courageous and strong, much more than I am. You are determined and show such perseverance. And I am so, so proud to be your mommy! You are one special little girl and I love you will all of my heart!