Saturday, April 10, 2010

Dear Morgan Kate,

Today is the day of the Orangeburg March for Babies. Last year was our first walk, but you were just a tiny thing and mostly stayed in your stroller. Today will be so different. Today YOU will walk! (For at least some of it anyway.)

You're nineteen months old now and I keep waiting for my emotions to settle. For me not to be so teary eyed by every little thing you do and that you are a part of. But it just hasn't happened. And I don't know that it ever will. And I am perfectly okay with that. I want to be strong today. I have been asked to say a few words before the walk and I want to do a good job. I don't want to be a blubbering mess. I want to make you proud. But I know that the tears will flow. They will flow because of you. You and your daddy are my heart and my life, my everything. They will flow because for quite some time, early on, I wasn't sure if I would ever see this day. I still have images of your tiny, frail, little body lying in the isolette with all of those wires and cords and tubes and not being able to hold you or comfort you. They will flow because of all the love your daddy and I have for you and for your precious, precious life. And they will flow because of all of our family and friends and supporters and all the love they show.

This year we have served as the Ambassador Family. It has been quite the honor and privilege. You are the Ambassador Baby. I'm slightly biased because I am your mommy, but I think they chose the perfect baby. One of the definitions for ambassador is an authorized messenger or representative. And you are just that. You are such a representative for the March of Dimes and premature babies and for all babies, everywhere. And you are definitely a messenger. Your story is inspiring and miraculous and I pray that to someone, somewhere, it gives them hope. And I hope that when you are old enough to talk, you will share you story with all who will listen. Because little girl, you have quite a story.

You are an amazing little girl, full of life and love and energy. Your smile melts my heart each and every day. Even at nineteen months you are courageous and strong, much more than I am. You are determined and show such perseverance. And I am so, so proud to be your mommy! You are one special little girl and I love you will all of my heart!

Love,
Mommy

6 comments:

MJP said...

Have a wonderful walk today, Team MK! We will be thinking of you.

Kathy Henson said...

Good luck today at the walk. :)
-Kathy H.

Anonymous said...

Morgan Kate is the perfect ambassador baby. March of Dimes picked the perfect family to represent them. You will do them proud. As a mother you will always be teary eyed at every milestone she makes. I still am.
Congratulations to all of you.

Blessings,
Carol H (AA)

Deni said...

I hope you have a great walk! Can't wait to see pictures!

Justin and Jessica Jones said...

What a beautiful letter from a loving momma. I hope you guys have a great day. I can't wait to read about the event and see pictures.
:) Love ya!
Jessica

Nancy Bozard said...

Wow! That was a very special letter to your Morgan Kate!! What a precious mother you are to her! All the things that you do for her and in honor of her are truly special. She is a gift....one hard fought for and one who is a fighter herself. She is a joy! What a messenger of courage and love you all are! Praise be to God! Hug!